The rain pulses a steady rhythm as I race to my van after bringing in the groceries and putting them away.I am on my way to pick up my daughter. Somehow two, whole school years have passed and now it is time for the final voyage.
I go back through my mind over two years ago when her and I set out to the 'big city' almost a two hour drive away. She wanted to see the school and write her entrance exam. I recall the trepidation as I wrestled with all the emotions of letting go.
Now two years later....I still wrestle. Yes, it may have gotten somewhat easier but at times I feel the anxiety of all that I cannot change or control.
I think a mother's heart strings are elastic. They need to expand and shrink so many times throughout the years.As time goes on and life brings change;
the elastic stretches to accommodate the accompanying emotions. As each child strains toward independence, the heartstrings now used to stretching do so with more ease and grace. In this time of stretching the heart learns it can expand and open to possibilities once thought beyond its realm. The heart finds a new, comfortable place within this constant stretching of strings.
A peace in all circumstances is a fine trade off for feeling in control of hopes, wishes and dreams.
rain-soothes my spirit,music -speaks to my heart,rice cakes- comfort my stomach:)
the drive I made almost weekly to pick up my daughter is a metaphor for the journey it was....beautiful,long,and stretching...
Life is constant transit
towards tomorrow and through today....
my oldest is finished college...she took a two year veterinary technician program...now comes the fun part of finding work!
and Happy Twentieth Birthday...as well.
so much to celebrate.....
I go back through my mind over two years ago when her and I set out to the 'big city' almost a two hour drive away. She wanted to see the school and write her entrance exam. I recall the trepidation as I wrestled with all the emotions of letting go.
Now two years later....I still wrestle. Yes, it may have gotten somewhat easier but at times I feel the anxiety of all that I cannot change or control.
I think a mother's heart strings are elastic. They need to expand and shrink so many times throughout the years.As time goes on and life brings change;
the elastic stretches to accommodate the accompanying emotions. As each child strains toward independence, the heartstrings now used to stretching do so with more ease and grace. In this time of stretching the heart learns it can expand and open to possibilities once thought beyond its realm. The heart finds a new, comfortable place within this constant stretching of strings.
A peace in all circumstances is a fine trade off for feeling in control of hopes, wishes and dreams.
rain-soothes my spirit,music -speaks to my heart,rice cakes- comfort my stomach:)
the drive I made almost weekly to pick up my daughter is a metaphor for the journey it was....beautiful,long,and stretching...
Life is constant transit
towards tomorrow and through today....
my oldest is finished college...she took a two year veterinary technician program...now comes the fun part of finding work!
and Happy Twentieth Birthday...as well.
so much to celebrate.....
